Yesterday when i knelt down to make a prayer to Christ i found tears rolling down n firstly the prayer that i could make is make my friends happy and safe ....I am gonna miss them as i leave the place....Thank you for the moments which i got to spend with them...
Now again a new phase of life going to start with new struggle...want to make my own identity in this world. New people will come around with new dreams in my mind i will keep walking further.....

Tough time...Exams going on!!

Yes a tough time i am going through...infact tough time for those whos giving exams. These are my final semester examinations. Practicals are over. Today finished first paper of my theory. Not satisfied at all after sitting for it. It was not that good as i worked hard for it. But thats not new to me every time i struggle like that. Anyways i always believe in looking forward...so right now looking forward to the next one. Hope that will be much much better than today. Wish me luck friends....

Missing home...

Not even a month left and so many works are still there to be completed. The questionnare, the net exam, practicals, the report submission..and to study for the final..When m gonna go home. Atleast i want to meet my parents before my finals. The whole semester i didnot get time to visit my home once. And at this hour m feeling that it would have been better if i get to hug my parents before xams. The condition of the road is not so good due to landslide...anytime it may get blocked and i may get stuck during the journey..My parents are askinng not to take the risk. But how to say them how m feeling being alone here. Atleast meeting them will raise my confidence. I expect i will be able to finish all my pending jobs at a right time.

Lines for my stupid friends....thats how they are unique...and I am obsessive about them!!

We remain in a group...without the company of each other we look incomplete...we expect a lot from each other but unable to speak out sometimes...we think my best friend will understand my words without being spoken...but as we fail to realise that this gives rise to silent heaviness of hearts...but is it fair to happen so??..is it fair to let it happen so??...i know the answer from each of u..it should be 'NO',....then why to make things so much complex...if u are annoyed you speak out..if u liked it express it ...if u loved it say it....after all we are Friends....formalties are not allowed within us...we dont want to complicate our feelings...We should stand straight from the heart and speak our mind...Thats how we can keep our spirits high as always...its fun u know....afterall we are positive people wat do u say??....

I cried for love...now its turn for love to cry for me...

Dont dare to call him dog...he is BHOMBOL...

Well here comes the only handsome hunk who is allowed to stay with all the girls in the hostel!!
Right above he is taking his his most luxurious soothing bath...huh...
Guys introducing to you 'BHOMBOL'....the most lovable ones in our hostel...
he s the most decent faithful and at the sane time very naughty....he loves luxory, chicken and girls( i guess so as he feels very happy to see us....;-))
Now you can see how he relaxes over the grass, under the Sun after a cool bath.....he is really cute...

My Viva voice!!

It was day before yesterday that i sat for my viva voice for the 3rd sessionals...and guess what i screwed it soo.. badly!!
With me shekinah went and she was thorough with her answers. I took a longer time to throw my words to the ear receptors of my teachers. Still i managed to answer it correctly as Mam Lis was supportive as always. The question which screwed me was about the alcohol estimation which was not clear to any of my classmates. And see my luck i had to be asked only that!!
A little bit I embarrased my teachers, as they expected better from me... Anyways i will try in the next one. But I am not happy with my performance.

Confession...

I am a libran, i always between this 'right' and 'wrong' revolts in my mind. I use to think people can hurt me but i can never  hurt them... but i proved myself wrong. I have hurt Saurabh very much. He asked just for my friendship and i could not  give my words for that even.

Those days when things were not going smooth and i found hard to find someone to share with my mind, i found this guy online, in gmail. he is from delhi; and we chatted almost all day... I dont know but i found this fellow a decent kind. So found safe to make him a friend. Once as i was discussing some emotional things i happened to give my number. The next day even i talked to him over phone. He was a kind of typical UP side fellow with tose typical accents..but he was good...

At the very next moment i felt i did something very wrong. To meet me he was ready to come to shillong even;  he asked me to marry him even; and that gave me the feeling that he was falling for me and i never wanted that. It was better to cut contacts. After a two times conversation over phone i started to ignore his calls. He really tried hard to make contacts. He said sorry for his misbehaviour and just for friendship.. He was ready to talk to my nonexisting brother, as i lied to him that my brother keep objection on such friendship!! ultimately he came to know about the truth. It is just that i couldnot continue even friendship as i knew what he has in his mind actually.

I know this is something very wrong and he hates me like anything. I had never done this to anyone ever before; and now i am feeling guilty for this. I dont deserve to say sorry after hurting someone so badly. He wont even listen to me now. I simply want to confess infront of the world that i am wrong. And for this forgive me Saurabh, please. U are a very good guy and will definitely get very good girl who will understand u much better. 

The bond i shared...

We enjoyed a lot, now its time to say goodbye to them. No, we are not moving; but our little sisters are leaving the hostel one by one as they have finished their graduation this year.

This is the first time i stepped in hostel life. I always have a bad image on my mind about the hostels and people living there; specially girl's hostel. I imagined the life inside will be full of cat fights, bitching around and backbitings!! But it was all a notion... I found a much better life there...we bacame a family, always ready to help each other; I got my juniors not simply to rag on, but feel lots of love for them as they are really sweet young sisters.

We celebrated every festivals together, when any one person was unhappy we all sighed together, we shared plates, we snatched choclates, watched movies, shared our crushes till now... we lived every moments as if it is the last...forgetting that one day we have to be apart...

But You have to move ahead, you have to be on peak....May God bless you with success and happiness. may he give you the strength to face any situations boldly, may you get the partner of your life who holds your hand even in your hardships...

little friends , i will miss YOU....

Life is going good. I have finished my introduction part of my project, but still not finalised as we may later make some editions if required. Dealing with all those research papers has helped me a lot. I genuinely now feel that I am a student of molecular...

Since last week even i got a new friend to talk with. He is an old buddy but after a long time I got in contact and feel nice talk to him.

From the next monday third sessionals are starting. Oh man, anyhow we have to score good in this; in the last one the whole class got screwed!! Anyways this time Sir Herbert kept choices on us that which portion to keep for the test, so that gives a bit relief...

Today there is a party for our juniors in hostel...a farewell party. They are leaving by this month and we really gonna miss them. They are not just our juniors but our younger sisters with whom we had fun all these two years. And when they are leaving we are feeling heavy inside. We were like a family afterall.

My project till now.

Last Saturday I completed my wet lab work. Only the dry lab work was remaining. After sitting for long hours infront of my laptop, i completed even that. I am feeling like much sincere than ever before as my 90%b work is almost completed before time. Sir definitely be feeling very happy about it; it is something else that he doesn't want to show it..huh...Now the writing part is left, and very soon it will also be over. But these days i find myself  a bit lazy to do this work. However, I have to do it anyway.

                           Hey, the result of my analysation of the Citrus samples are quiet good. The Shillong samples of C. macroptera and C. latipes shows good percentage of relations than the Silchar ones, which is quiet expected. Now if I can continue with my Ethanobotany part, I will have another point to present with. So, lets see....